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There is a Flaming Soul of Passion within each of us.
Nurtured and respected, She will light up your life,
illuminating every dark corner.
Ignored or repressed, She will burn down the walls that imprison her,
leaving nothing but ashes in her wake.
She will always find a way to leave her mark.
~ Dorothy Mendoza Row

“Romantic love, in pornography as in life, is the mythic celebration of female negation. For a woman, love is defined as her willingness to submit to her own annihilation. The proof of love is that she is willing to be destroyed by the one whom she loves, for his sake. For the woman, love is always self-sacrifice, the sacrifice of identity, will, and bodily integrity, in order to fulfill and redeem the masculinity of her lover.”
–Andrea Dworkin

Wow!!!! Startling, honest, true… I WANT to be more courageous.

TED Talks – Brene Brown: The Power of Vulnerability
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One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a debate that goes on inside people. He said, “My son, the battle is between two ‘wolves’ inside us all.

One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, and ego.

The other is good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.”

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: “which wolf wins?”

The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”

It’s all about believing in your dreams, even when nobody else does.

But the moment before decision is the fork in the road, the neutral ground of possibility.

Just the word makes me salivate. I’m in love with possibility. When left to fantasise about what’s possible, everything is amazing. But, it’s still not real yet, and nothing is guaranteed. And outcomes are so often not what we planned because sadly we screw up, a lot. Well, I do.

I had all of existence before I came into being to imagine every possibility, and possibly all of existence after I die, floating around in the soup of all our possibilities. This life is the one chance we have, that I know of, to take action on these ideas. That’s what living is, as opposed to existing.

So somehow, I have to get over this fear of messing up and actually make a decision at some point. Starting with where Frolina and I are going to live once I leave Pittsburgh. I dont know why it’s taking so long to figure out where I’m going next. Maybe in a little bit more time it will all make sense.

“When you no longer seek the final word on the rightness of your behaviors and instead seek alignment with the Source within you by finding thoughts, words, and deeds that fill you with love while you participate, you will understand that it is possible to live upon this planet with large numbers of other Beings–who believe and behave in a variety of ways–in peace.”
~ Abraham-Hicks

Sometimes I get frustrated with myself. On the one hand I KNOW I know NOTHING, and I am here, craving to learn and seek as much as I can in this short lifetime… and on the other hand I have this INFURIATING habit of always needing to be right. Even arguing until I’m shouting sometimes.

I need to learn to shut up and accept exactly how the other person thinks or feels, even, in the worst case, if what I am not accepting is another person criticising me… the other person not accepting me. Why do I get so heated? Why do I care so much about what other people think about things? And also, why do I continue to care so much about what other people think of me? I would like to be completely free of all of this junk.

Afterall, other peoples opinions of us are none of our business. Their opinions are their unfinished business.

A lot of us think sometimes there is no point, that it doesn’t really count because they don’t listen to us anyway. It’s not exactly true. Just think about what talks. The only thing they listen to and in fact, the only real voting system that exists. We vote every single time we open our wallets and choose what to spend it on. Creating a ripple of demand. Showing our stamp of approval. Of where the item was manufactured, how it was made, what precious resources it used, how far it was transported at what expense to keep frozen, which countries and small businesses were squashed to make it so incredibly affordable, every job that was lost. In this sense the world does revolve around you. And every single thing you demand to have.

When I think about this, and how angry I get about how everyone else is fucking up the planet… and then I think about that thing I just bought, or ate… I shut up.