We spend so much energy on things we can’t control…
Every one of us knows what it’s like to invest in something with determination, passion and conviction for a long time, sometimes half a lifetime, whether it be with money, sweat, time, love… to find yourself suddenly at the end of the road with a NO. A failure.
Some of us have repeated failure experiences. It can be hard to let go, to walk away. To not fall into the victim role.
It can be easier when you realise that energy doesn’t just disappear. Whatever you put in will come out the other end somehow.
Every choice you made along the way has had an effect. Hopefully with some good karma put in. Hopefully the investment wasn’t completely selfish. Every time I have made a completely selfish investment it has always flung back and hit me smack on the head.
Sometimes a YES, when we force it, can have devastating consequences on our lives. There is an arab curse i know only too well, “May you get everything you wish for.” I know what it means to get everything I want. It has rarely been a good thing.
Often a NO leads to far better things. Be patient, see how things pan out in the long run before hastily declaring a failure.
So the question is, are we going to walk away this time as the victim or the hero? And what are you taking with you from the experience this time around?
bird
Thanks Rich. That means a lot to me.
Richard (yes, that Richard)
Hang in there, Sweetie. Lots of people love you and have you in their thoughts.
Bronnie
What you wrote above was simple and true – I love and support you koeksister in all things (even though I come out a bit harsh sometimes)
bird
Thanks Bronnie. I support you too and really admire your strength and courage.
bird
Nothing specific. I’m just re-emerging after getting my head around a recent painful disappointment. I was really just keeping myself in check by writing it and thought it might be helpful to a couple of other people if I write something instead of keeping it all to myself.
This year has felt like a process of learning to trust, not in others so much (which I tend to do far too easily), but in how I’ve been held throughout life, always been okay, or come out the other end of a painful experience better off. How everything just works itself out in the end. To live without fear.
I can’t see it right now so clearly, I’m still in the woods, still hurting, but I believe it will work out better. Especially if I stop fighting, stop trying to control everything. Just let things flow naturally in whatever way they like.
denise
what are you saying here?