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Archive: November, 2009
So I’ve been reading up online, trying to figure out if or when this chemical in my brain will wear off, the one that attracts me so intensely to my ex. For those who haven’t been following its been about 2 months since he left, and we were together nearly 5 years. I figured it must be chemical because I have successfully moved on in almost every other way, except I’ve made no headway physically. I found some other things out. (more…)
“The myth of romantic love is a dreadful lie. Perhaps it is a necessary lie in that it assures the ‘falling in love’- experience that traps us into marriage. But as a psychiatrist I weep in my heart almost daily for the ghastly confusion and suffering that this myth fosters. Millions of people waste vast amounts of energy desperately in an attempt to make the reality of their lives conform to the unreality of the myth.”
~ M. Scott Peck, from his book A Road Less Travelled.
Of course this piqued my curiosity, extremely, and so I ordered myself a copy with a free credit on PaperBackSwap.com. As usual, just going along with my gut instincts…
So this is where I am at on The Kübler-Ross Grief Cycle – slap bang in the middle:
I’m a little surprised I came out of the anger in just 3 days, and somewhat disappointed because it was really the most determined and powerful I’ve felt in this whole process. (more…)
Okay so I am SUPER excited! I just spent about 4 hours on the phone, which is very odd as I’m not a big fan of being on the phone AT ALL anymore, but time just flew by, and it was incredibly inspiring and connecting, as it always is whenever we get talking. A great friend I met in Austin during my travels is now coming through Marathon to visit me in about 2 weeks on a motorbike trip towards Mexico and South America, and we’re going to go on a seriously fantastic Texas adventure beforehand. I cannot wait to spill the beans when the time comes. You’re all invited for the ride in my back pocket!
And to think this day started off so challenging and confusing. I need to write about that sometime soon, before it passes, to capture it. I’ve definitely moved on from the anger stage much faster than anticipated, which could have gone on for months or years, which is GOOD as this means I’m moving on fast towards end goal, however its a downward slant after the anger peak, more like a plummet, hence the more challenging than usual days from here on out. I’ll explain soon when I’m actually feeling it.
I’m so happy right now and that’s what I want to focus on. A great night’s sleep will be had :D Every day things happen one thing after another that feels like the universe is rolling out the red carpet for little old me. Its mind boggling!!! Why is this happening? I’m almost shy to step out of the limo in my shabby gypsy dress but heck I’m going to do it anyway!
Good night sweet things. No, great night!
…for my endlessly patient and loving family, for my inspirational funny intelligent friends who hang in there with me even though I keep moving country… to my new readers on yummy wakame for all the support and insight… to my uncle Steve who sent me a bunch of never seen toddler photos this morning of our days of yore together… and to my eternally inappropriate mother who I adore, for remembering Thanksgiving a month too early…
(I had to dig this one up)
Wow, seriously? Not only is the writer sassily named after one of my favourite friends Jennifer Jones, she is BRILLIANT at what she does! I wish I had had access to this incredible relationship resource 5 years ago. Truly, it would have been a second chance for me. The depth of insight and wisdom on the first page alone would have saved me from myself.
Thanks Angela, for pointing me to this today.
I sense acutely today, that this difficult path I’ve chosen towards celibacy, for the time while I find my truest nature, is leading me towards the polar opposite of how I have lived my life so far. It is taking me down roads I never considered before, and allowing me to explore avenues I used to be afraid of. I am still nervous of. Some of the most basic fundamental things I believed in and ways I acted on that propelled me on a daily basis towards my goals, towards happiness, are changing.
I am discovering along the way that happiness is not something that can be strived for, it is not something that can be grabbed onto, or held even for a moment, or even observed, as it then slips through the fingers. (more…)
I love this song. And the video makes me happy. Tilt-shift time-lapse animation.
Dir. Keith Loutit / Australia / 2008
Song: Clementine by Megan Washington
Please click on the full-screen button to view it in all its miniature glory.
View it on YouTube.
I was touched by the sentiment, it being lunch time and all. But being a vegetarian I had to refuse.
Your birth date snuck up on me like you have ever since I’ve known you and that invisible cloak of yours.
Last night I dreamed I couriered you 3 velveteen black roses from an esoteric florist. I can’t remember what it meant, or why I sent that particular gift, but I was so happy to be sending them. I floated in space and saw the courier deliver them, both you and Niq were at the door, you opened the box and both smiled widely, knowing it was from me even before reading the card. I visited you and Niq some time later and they were hanging, dried, up on your den wall.
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